“Food sounds like a very good idea,” she agreed, offering him a smile before looking at the menu in front of her.
“….but I would like for you to stay the night sometimes more than anything.”
Tim looked at the menu as well, not really bothering to see what they had. He already knew.
Glancing up, he cracked a smile. “If I can, then I’ll stay. There are times when I can’t.”
“You haven’t stated yet.” She commented a moment before closing her menu and looking up at him, “Can you stay tonight?”
Tim chuckled before leaning back in his seat, tilting his head slightly. “….Mmm, I should be able to. Yeah. I’ll stay.”
“….I… felt that once… a very long time ago…” With her parents, when she was a child. It had become even stronger after her mother had died, but then her dad was always so suspicious of her because she was lying about where she was (having been Robin and all) and it put a rift between them.
And then he was killed too, so what did it matter anyway?
“I understand that…”
“Then you understand. It’s not easy…” Tim stared at her for a bit before smiling. “I think we both understand it a little too well.”
His fathers death hadn’t been pretty. And when he talked about it with an alternate version of himself, it was a little more brutal than what his other versions had gone through.
Though, he probably dealt with it a little better. He didn’t cry. Would never cry. He dealt with it with his anger.
“So, how about we order something to eat? We’ve been sitting here without ordering anything.” Smiles a bit.
“Food sounds like a very good idea,” she agreed, offering him a smile before looking at the menu in front of her.
“….but I would like for you to stay the night sometimes more than anything.”
Tim looked at the menu as well, not really bothering to see what they had. He already knew.
Glancing up, he cracked a smile. “If I can, then I’ll stay. There are times when I can’t.”
“Love someone and act like you don’t?”
“Oh, mmm, that’s kind of hard to explain.” Tim tilted his head in thought. “Have you ever felt…such an enormous amount of affection towards someone or something that you never want them to leave? That you want to keep them safe and close?”
Tim snorted slightly. “Well, when it comes to me, if I ever feel like that, I want to keep it hidden. It leaves a bigger chance of them staying, and if I act like I don’t love them, it hurts less. A lot less. I don’t have to expect to receive any type of affection back. It helps to think that I don’t love them.”
“….I… felt that once… a very long time ago…” With her parents, when she was a child. It had become even stronger after her mother had died, but then her dad was always so suspicious of her because she was lying about where she was (having been Robin and all) and it put a rift between them.
And then he was killed too, so what did it matter anyway?
“I understand that…”
“Then you understand. It’s not easy…” Tim stared at her for a bit before smiling. “I think we both understand it a little too well.”
His fathers death hadn’t been pretty. And when he talked about it with an alternate version of himself, it was a little more brutal than what his other versions had gone through.
Though, he probably dealt with it a little better. He didn’t cry. Would never cry. He dealt with it with his anger.
“So, how about we order something to eat? We’ve been sitting here without ordering anything.” Smiles a bit.
”..How do you do it?” She tilted her head a bit, staring at him.
Tilts his own head, staring back. “How do I do what?”
“Love someone and act like you don’t?”
“Oh, mmm, that’s kind of hard to explain.” Tim tilted his head in thought. “Have you ever felt…such an enormous amount of affection towards someone or something that you never want them to leave? That you want to keep them safe and close?”
Tim snorted slightly. “Well, when it comes to me, if I ever feel like that, I want to keep it hidden. It leaves a bigger chance of them staying, and if I act like I don’t love them, it hurts less. A lot less. I don’t have to expect to receive any type of affection back. It helps to think that I don’t love them.”
“…I’m not sure I can sleep with you, knowing you’re in love with someone else.” She bit her lip at that. Oh. That hurt to admit.
She shook her head, “Puppies do not cuddle. They chew and destroy.”
“Mmm, it’s not very easy I’d guess. It’s not easy being in love with someone who won’t even acknowledge that fact either though.” Tim smiled a bit, shrugging his shoulders.
Snorts. “Well, my puppy’s cuddle. And then they chew and destroy.”
”..How do you do it?” She tilted her head a bit, staring at him.
Tilts his own head, staring back. “How do I do what?”
“Guess that means no more sleeping together, hm?” Though, if he was in love with Jason, she wasn’t sure she wanted to. She didn’t want to cause any sort of problem with them, even if Jason wasn’t aware of Tim’s feelings.
“I don’t want a puppy.” They were loud and messy and they needed constant attention… which were the same reasons she didn’t have a boyfriend.
“That could be your choice.” Snickers, shrugging his shoulders a bit. “If you’d like to be friends with benefits well I wouldn’t really complain. We did sleep together every once in a while, never day after day.”
Shrugs a bit. “Well alright then. I just need to find homes for about a dozen of them. And I don’t trust the pounds.” Tim wrinkled his nose at the thought of them. “Though the offer to cuddle with them is still open.” Chuckles.
“…I’m not sure I can sleep with you, knowing you’re in love with someone else.” She bit her lip at that. Oh. That hurt to admit.
She shook her head, “Puppies do not cuddle. They chew and destroy.”
“Mmm, it’s not very easy I’d guess. It’s not easy being in love with someone who won’t even acknowledge that fact either though.” Tim smiled a bit, shrugging his shoulders.
Snorts. “Well, my puppy’s cuddle. And then they chew and destroy.”
She snorted at that, raising an eyebrow, “What on earth would I do with a puppy?” She shook her head ever so slightly before looking back at him seriously, “I always come back.” Even when she didn’t want to. Even when she wanted nothing more than to stop fighting, to disappear, she couldn’t.
“…Is this a friendship?” Honestly she wasn’t sure. He hadn’t had many friends in her life and most of them ended up as bed partners and then walked out of her life forever.
“I dunno, cuddle it. Play with it. Make it your baby. Train it.” Shrugs a bit. “My dogs all of the above.” Smiles a bit. “He can be there when others can’t. Nice to have a pet around.” Nods a bit, chuckling. “So do I.”
Tilts his head a bit. “If you want it to be, then yes. A friend hasn’t stayed by your side for very long have they? That’s one thing they’re missing out on.” Grins a bit. “So yes, a friendship sounds appropriate.”
“Guess that means no more sleeping together, hm?” Though, if he was in love with Jason, she wasn’t sure she wanted to. She didn’t want to cause any sort of problem with them, even if Jason wasn’t aware of Tim’s feelings.
“I don’t want a puppy.” They were loud and messy and they needed constant attention… which were the same reasons she didn’t have a boyfriend.
“That could be your choice.” Snickers, shrugging his shoulders a bit. “If you’d like to be friends with benefits well I wouldn’t really complain. We did sleep together every once in a while, never day after day.”
Shrugs a bit. “Well alright then. I just need to find homes for about a dozen of them. And I don’t trust the pounds.” Tim wrinkled his nose at the thought of them. “Though the offer to cuddle with them is still open.” Chuckles.
She stared at him for a long moment, eyes a little wide. She swallowed, afraid to believe for even a moment that what he was offering was real. It couldn’t be real; it was too good to be true. She bit her lip, staring at him for a long moment.
”..I’d… like that…” Despite how scared she was that he would walk out on her and leave her even more broken than she was to start with, she wanted this. She already cared about him, which was more than apparent with how frequently she sought him out. She didn’t normally do that. One night and gone.
But she was so tired of not having people be in her life for more than a day. And who could you trust more than yourself?
“I want to let you in.”
Tim smiled at her, shifting in his seat. “You can. And you can take your time with it, there’s not really a rush for it is there? I’m not going anywhere. And even if I’m not here for a week or so, I always end up popping back in don’t I? No matter how long I’m gone?”
“I know what it’s like to wait and for people not to come back sometimes, but I will come back. I can promise you that. But, you have to promise me that too beautiful.”
Quirks an eyebrow, smiling softly. “I can even give you a puppy to seal the deal. My dogs been, ahem, busy.” Snorts, grinning. “Jason doesn’t know yet and probably won’t for a while.”
She snorted at that, raising an eyebrow, “What on earth would I do with a puppy?” She shook her head ever so slightly before looking back at him seriously, “I always come back.” Even when she didn’t want to. Even when she wanted nothing more than to stop fighting, to disappear, she couldn’t.
“…Is this a friendship?” Honestly she wasn’t sure. He hadn’t had many friends in her life and most of them ended up as bed partners and then walked out of her life forever.
“I dunno, cuddle it. Play with it. Make it your baby. Train it.” Shrugs a bit. “My dogs all of the above.” Smiles a bit. “He can be there when others can’t. Nice to have a pet around.” Nods a bit, chuckling. “So do I.”
Tilts his head a bit. “If you want it to be, then yes. A friend hasn’t stayed by your side for very long have they? That’s one thing they’re missing out on.” Grins a bit. “So yes, a friendship sounds appropriate.”
Looks at him in surprise, but, really, they were kind of the same person now weren’t they? “….Yeah. Never get attached.”
“I think the same way, even when it comes to Jason. I don’t act like I’m in love with the idiot and I sure as hell don’t talk about it with him. But really, I hardly doubt he knows how I feel. And I’d rather have it stay that way. But I did get attached. He’s the only one I’ve ever been attached too.” Smiles at Tammy, tilting his head.
“I don’t see or talk with him as often as I would want. It’s been a pretty long time already since I’ve heard from him. But I’m used to it. But loneliness does settle in. It’s annoying really. But we’re partly the same person, in a way. Maybe we can help each other, trust each other enough to get close, hm? The dull ache would fade a bit don’t you think?”
She stared at him for a long moment, eyes a little wide. She swallowed, afraid to believe for even a moment that what he was offering was real. It couldn’t be real; it was too good to be true. She bit her lip, staring at him for a long moment.
”..I’d… like that…” Despite how scared she was that he would walk out on her and leave her even more broken than she was to start with, she wanted this. She already cared about him, which was more than apparent with how frequently she sought him out. She didn’t normally do that. One night and gone.
But she was so tired of not having people be in her life for more than a day. And who could you trust more than yourself?
“I want to let you in.”
Tim smiled at her, shifting in his seat. “You can. And you can take your time with it, there’s not really a rush for it is there? I’m not going anywhere. And even if I’m not here for a week or so, I always end up popping back in don’t I? No matter how long I’m gone?”
“I know what it’s like to wait and for people not to come back sometimes, but I will come back. I can promise you that. But, you have to promise me that too beautiful.”
Quirks an eyebrow, smiling softly. “I can even give you a puppy to seal the deal. My dogs been, ahem, busy.” Snorts, grinning. “Jason doesn’t know yet and probably won’t for a while.”
